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Delusions Of Reality

by Olli Kivelä

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1.
Weight Of The World 05:05
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Shattered light enters my mind Barely recognize the color of the sky What are the feelings that I should feel? In this crowded void who is me? I saw a breakout in prison of the mind Wanted to elope the weight of the world Lit the candle to see the colors of darkness Glad to feel the pain again I reached the helping hand of someone to make me see me again as myself Someone to make me feel things again Once I felt the light of the sun Overwhelmed by voices I fell to the ground Overloading my senses I stared around Looked for my peers but none I found Mistook expectations, judged me, myself no comfort found I sank through the ground Under the surface I cannot be found mustn't feel a thing I'm hurt all around
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Fear 04:50
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What drives rational people insane? What sends shivers down your spine? What shakes your peace of mind? What irritates your senses alike? Torment of thoughts eating you alive makes no sense just digging in your mind Can't shake things out of your head Don't give in, don't drop dead Paralyzing fear deep inside slowly growing, eating you alive Aloud in the night or silent in the crowd you keep screaming, trying to shout in a dream you see there's a window and then you wake up and there's no way out Doubt the reasons every day What if I'm wrong? scared to be right Nobody listens to no-one, alright Need helping hand, do you mind Light gets dimmer day by day Running away from another fist fight Got to do something you're damn right I don't believe I'm one of the kind
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Competition Of Misery 05:57
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The race of our lives gets more boring or else why would you complain? Day by day we wither away and time leaves traces behind We lose our skin, we lose our flesh Would you like to hear something fresh? What we hold dear and sacred, you break down for entertainment Competition of misery with always something new Playing games on the losing side with nothing to hide You won't settle the score always want something more and you drag me in to your competition of misery If I'm hurt bad you take it away If you're hurt bad you make me say I'm sorry for your lost at what cost me too I'm hurt the most Pain is not only physical It takes its toll and I can't re-roll dice of my life, neither can you not that you'd want, you enjoy competition And when I'm old and days turn to cold the race only speeds up the pace Two steps behind in the final lap Will I get some rest in peace? What will you do, got rid of me? Got some company for next roulette? Am I satisfied, have you won? Have I lost or found easy living?
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Ruler Of Self Made Hell 05:19
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Mr know-it-all watch me fall Denied all help don't show or tell Close your eyes Cover your ears Shout it out Leave without help or guidance make your own mistakes proud in silence Martyr till the end You claim it for all denied, complaining you'll tell and when the hammer falls you'll be the ruler of your self made hell Mr know-it-all care to tell me why you hide in darkness scared of the light
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Unforgiven 05:47
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Ghosts of the past Skeletons in the closet Nightmares haunt you day by day Are you only one? What have you done? What did you do to you and me? Denounce yourself those who matter you the most or forgive yourself Learn to live with consequences Suit yourself bear the guilt if you must and in the end you'll be still unforgiven Hatred in your eyes Evil looking at your door Revenge that eats you alive Guilt presses your heart darkens your enlightened mind Running in circles with no way out One must learn to forgive oneself One must learn to let it go One must learn to fight shadow of doubt One must learn to free the mind from shame One must learn to accept oneself One must learn to live with oneself Maybe one day you'll realise It's not a mirror, it's me looking back Don't hide away this is reality Our souls are broken toys beyond repair and in the end we're all the same Who am I to judge you? - in the mirror I see you unforgiven
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The Evil That Men Do 04:07
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Unholy alliance between men Smile dies on your face and you turn your back again I look at your mirror and see no reflection this only confirms me your true nature What's going on in human mind I don't understand I can't define Plotting, calculating, scheming, backstabbing mesmerizing, manipulating, pretending, driving me insane Nice and shiny on the outside have rotten souls Darkened heart beats only for themselves Prefect gentlemen for ones who don't want to see True behavior hidden behind mask of compliments Silent dictators, loud hypnotizers are you blind for your own act or don't you see? Talking about equality why are you trampling me it ain't compromise if you don't change anything
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Delusions Of Reality 05:26
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Every day we'll find a away to tear down the walls of sanity We try to look away but there's bad blood everywhere What lead to this, our feelings weaponised? Our lives are loose threads in the fabric of the universe Crossing the invisible lines We patronise the martyr The faces we see in the mirror are just delusions of reality So you said, you tried of making things right again Do you wait your prize? What's wrong with no burning skies? You were wrong, it's all gone and you promised never again Someone else must clean up and make the things right again
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The Last Day Of My Life So Far 05:42
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Another day, another fight going with the flow tonight I will find myself again This is the prime in my lifetime I'm living like it's the last day of my life I will pave my way No more tears, no holding back I'm living like it's the last day of my life so far Another night, another sight I'm getting what's mine this time They won't break my will This is the prime in my lifetime I'm living like it's the last day of my life I will never give in No more tears, no holding back I'm living like it's the last day of my life so far Another day, another way I'm doing fine, okay Living on the edge This is the prime in my lifetime I'm living like it's the last day of my life I will never give in I'm standing proud I'm living like it's the last day of my life so far Another night, another sight I'm getting what's mine this time They won't break my will This is the prime in my lifetime I'm living like it's the last day of my life I will pave my way No more tears, no holding back I'm living like it's the last day of my life so far
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Not A Game We Should Play 04:58
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We talk about self-esteem not sure what you mean you say it's not a game but still you have won What have we done? I used to be the broken one I've burned my wings in the blackened sun Your words burn like fire in my veins whipping, knives in my back, screaming in pain I close my eyes, there's hell to pay This is not a game (that) we should play Don't take me wrong like you always do You say you don't but you're fucking with me Don't you realise? In your game I'm the pawn Blinded by the blood-red moon In reality there's no winners The game is already lost You made me your lamb When I was all ears I may have cured you So why am I hurt even more? Sing the anthem of the broken world
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Dancing On Black Roses 03:59
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Do you believe in fate? Do you believe in lucky stars? What will fortune bring us? Or do you carve your own destiny? Do you believe in happiness? Do you believe in bad luck? Are we destined to lose Or do we doom ourselves? Dancing on black roses Life gives and life takes No rest for the wicked Winners take it all Dancing on black roses Life gives and life takes No rest for the wicked Winners take it all Do you believe in life? Do you believe in death? Do you believe in afterlife Or do you let the chance roll the dice? Do you believe in chance? Do you trust yourself? Will you make right choices or big brother who watches? Do you control your life? Do you believe in good luck? Do you watch the star sky? Or do you paint your own colors? Do you make your fortune? Do you write your fate? Do you walk your own path? Or take what life has to offer? Dancing on black roses Life gives and life takes No rest for the wicked Winners take it all Dancing on black roses Life gives and life takes No rest for the wicked Winners take it all Dancing on blood red roses Life will give and life will take Dancing on blood red roses Losers will fall

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This album began in just a couple of songs for testing my guitar gear and to practise my recording and mixing skills. In the end I noticed I got total of 10 songs and album full of material. Anyway this is still a project for me to practise my skills so any hating or loving it is unintentional :).

Lyrical-wise I love to analyze human mind and aspects people have against the world and each others.

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released May 29, 2018

Composed and arranged by Olli Kivelä 2018
Lyrics by Olli Kivelä
Guitars, Vocals, Keyboards, Bass: Olli Kivelä
Drums programmed by Olli Kivelä
Recorded, mixed and mastered by Olli Kivelä 2018
Cover artwork by Olli Kivelä 2018

Copyright (c) Olli Kivelä 2018

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Olli Kivelä Finland

I'm a metalhead who likes fast tempo, heavy riffs, epic orchestrations and a nice balance of clean and growling vocals. In most of areas I'm self-taught. I'm also a DIY enthusiastic. I like to make my gear myself and I like to compose, arrange, play, sing, produce, record, mix, and master all my music myself.

You can find me also in Spotify, Apple Music, and Youtube. ... more

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